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I was born in 1967 to hearing parents.  My hearing loss was not detected until I was four, when my ENT discovered a cholesteatoma (cyst) in my right ear during an adenoid procedure.  No one is sure how much I was able to hear before that time.  Hearing tests revealed a moderate-severe loss and I was immediately fitted with a hearing aid in my right ear.  In the following years, my hearing loss  worsened, usually in quick, dramatic instances.

In October 1991, I was driving home from work when my residual hearing suddenly vanished. For ten years following that, I was profoundly deaf, but continued to wear a hearing aid in the right ear.

July 2001 • Visited UNC-Chapel Hill Neurosciences Hospital. Met Carol Gilmer, CCA, and Dr. Harold Pillsbury. After a temporal bone CAT scan and Initial hearing tests which showed very poor results (see pre-op scores), I qualified as a cochlear implant candidate.

CAT scans revealed that I had the Enlarged Vestibular Aqueduct Syndrome (EVAS), but should not affect the implant. Surgery date scheduled for mid-September.

September 18, 2001 • Implanted with MED-EL device. Surgery was approx 4 hours-- a bit longer than usual. Due to an undetected cochlear malformation, the electrode had to be inserted three times. Fortunately, with the MED-EL's straight electrode, Dr. Pillsbury was able to get 8 (out of 12) in the cochlea. The waiting begins....

October 4, 2001 • Hook -up day. I returned earlier than my originally scheduled date of October 29. I was extremely ill with vertigo and tinnitus (sounded like I was under the wings of a jet taking off), that I was asked to come in. It was explained that getting some sound in my ear will greatly help the vertigo-- as my brain was "screaming" for some sound.

First we mapped my threshold levels (basically the quietest volume levels I can detect and then the maximum loudness I can tolerate). Then Carol turned it "on"... and suddenly I was hearing beeps and blips. I had expected this, due to the superb preparation by Carol and her staff, but also from hearing of other implantees' experiences. Still, it was quite a shock --- and even more surprisingly, I felt better. Carol was so right in the fact that once I got sound, my tinnitus and vertigo would ease. I could not believe it.

After hearing beeps for 10 minutes, the sounds became more like garbled voices, similar to hearing underwater. Then just 30 minutes after that, I was recognizing voices, and very soft sounds like a tea kettle brewing. It amazes me how fast your brain processes sounds. Voices were still very quacky-sounding, like Mickey Mouse or one of the Chipmunks (ie. Alvin), but they were voices, alright-- and not beeps.

October 7 • Dinner with family. Whoa..... all those forks clanking on the plates, refrigerator running in the background. My three-year old was singing various songs in the backseat (Twinkle, Twinkle; Shepherd, Shaped; etc.) and I knew which he was singing.

October 8 • Buddy Holly and Elvis. Great beat and sound, but the voices a little quacky. Starting picking up the bass beats in the background. Don't remember ever hearing those with my hearing aid before. Cool.

October 9 • For the first time in his life, I told Jordan to "keep it down". He was just playing in his playroom with his Rescue Heroes. Got a strange look from him.

October 11 • Listened to my parents over the speakerphone and understood the majority of the conversation. A very emotional moment for everyone. Jenni and I did some AV exercises, which I passed with great success. For example, she would read some sentences and names of family members-- and I understood a very big portion of it, We were so thrilled at the success I was having in just one week's time.

October 29 • Returned to Chapel Hill for the first official mapping and hearing tests. Results were fantastic! I began to feel much better. Still having trouble with equilibrium and balance, but the tinnitus and vertigo had subsided.

During these few months, I have started playing my guitar and keyboard again; talking to coworkers and family on the telephone with minimal difficulties; even called my son from Richmond and had a great phone conversation for the first time, heard my stomach growl and the soft ticking of clocks and light timers in our rooms.

December 20 • Three month testing was excellent. Everyone [especially me] was thrilled with the test scores....

May 14, 2002 • Eight months later, I continue to pick up new sounds such as annoying crickets. Geez, I had no idea what they sounded like before. I can understand my son whispering to me. I use the cell phone with much ease. I am enjoying music tremendously... picking up guitar riffs, the soft melodies of the piano, and even understanding the words of some songs. [ Just wish I could sing it ]

May 29, 2002 • Business trip in Austria: During a listening experience at the University of Innsbruck, I understood sentences with great success-- coming from a woman with a strong (but lovely) English accent. "What colour ah your trousers?" ( I joking responded.." We call them PANTS over there."). Never dreamed that I woul understand a foreign accent as well as I did. Another major highlight was meeting the team of engineers that built my COMBI 40+. Overwhelmed with so much emotion that I could barely utter a word of "thanks for changing my life." I guess seeing a crying, smiling patient was more than simple words can say.

June, 2002 • Six-month eval went great. HINT in noise scores improved greatly (72%). Was tested again with HINT sentences only 5 db louder than the noise (as opposed to 10 db louder in the original test) and tested at (41%). Understood my wife whispering for the first time ever. Heard numbers called out in a noisy pizza restaurant, sprinkler systems sputtering across the lawn, leaves rustling along the driveway...

April, 2003 • My second son, Jackson was born. As much of a miracle as his arrival was, it was even more miraculous at how I heard it all. I required no interpeter -- as I did when my first child was born and I was wearing my hearing aid. I understood the doctors with their masks on -- even with the medical instruments buzzing and beeping in the background. I heard Jax's first scream. I called my family and peers on my own cell phone to share the news. Wonderful.

 
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